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Her soft touch feels like a gossamer soft feather caressing my cheek. Her eyes sparkle like large, languid pools of mischief almost too big on her pretty face. She looks at me with an unwavering stare, unblinking, her look almost searing its way through my soul. Her smell, nay fragrance is divine. I close my eyes and whiff in the floral tones that linger long on my skin even after she is gone. And, her smiles, the fleeting ones, sometimes giggly at other times full blown laughter melt my heart into small gooey puddles of warm chocolate.

She is a friend’s little baby girl who is absolutely a delight to be around. I can’t tell you how much I look forward to carrying her in my arms and spending time with her. Children, oh they are just so spectacularly pure, so beautiful and warm; they win your heart even when they don’t give you any attention.

It is an open secret that I wanted a girl but nature had other plans. It is not to say that I don’t love my boys with all my heart. Just that in some tiny part of my heart, I miss not having a girl. Children are a blessing in so many wonderful ways. They make us more humane, more responsible and more loving. When they are tiny, you hold them tightly and take each step gingerly being extra cautious due to the precious load in your arms. As they grow older, you try your best to shield them from falls and minor injuries knowing fully well that those are inevitable and part of the growing up process.

As they get yet older, you want to hug them and protect them from the abuses, the heartbreaks, and    the harshness of the cruel world. Of course, you can’t hole them up inside the home, isolated and insulated. So, you equip them to handle the big, bad world themselves. You hover in the shadows as you watch them handle the insults and the bullying and smile secretly when they deal with it capably. Your heart wrenches every time they fight back a tear, every time they hurt, but you hold back and let each tiny incident work towards making their experiences richer.

Just in case you were wondering, no I don’t want to have any more little kids around me. I have brought up two, and I know the hard work they entail. I love little kids as long as they belong to someone else :). I don’t know how I did it, but now the thought of all that work makes me feel so tired :). Yes, I still love playing with them and more importantly enjoy my interactions with them – sometimes moody, at other times comic but almost always fun!

74 Thoughts on “The little girl!

  1. Very sweet post Rachna… your love for kids shows all the way through it 🙂 tugged at the heart, this one..

  2. That’s why God made nieces. I’m hopelessly addicted to mine. Everything she does, everything she says is pure magic.

  3. I wanted a little girl too, in fact I wept when I realized that was not going to happen. Never mind, may be the universe will grant us grand daughters.

    • Yep, my husband and I were heartbroken when the second time around we came to know that a son was born. We knew it was our last chance. Like you said, I will hang on to that hope!

  4. Dear Rachana, I feel so much in tune with this. I feel this way about my own pixie.

  5. That was so sweet 🙂 Lovely post Rachna…I love kids too…they bring out the best in us!! As of now not planning my own but I’m soon gonna be a bua n can’t wait for that!

  6. Girls can be your best friends when they grow up. I was one to my mom and I am pretty close to my daughter. Nice post.

  7. Children indeed are fun to be around. I can understand your love for the girl child, because my sister too is really fond of girls. She has a boy. I love kids for the honest opinions, innocence and they provide a huge learning experience. Cute little post that was. 🙂

  8. That was such a cute story:-) You had me from the beginning till the end:-) The joy of life:-)

  9. Oh, yes, I have felt that way quite some times too, but as you say, didn’t have the energy to raise another child 🙂 The advantage of having sons is that we get lovely young women as daughters when our sons get married, And as Ritu says, if we want to enjoy little girls growing up, we can always enjoy our granddaughters as I am doing now 🙂

    • What a delight to have you here, Zephyr! You are completely my inspiration in that department. I hope to have daughters and grand daughters to indulge my love for girls :).

  10. This is such a cute post Rachna. Even though it is a pleasure to bring up both girls and boys ,It is very sad when the girl leaves you after she gets married. The daughter in law is also lovable like a daughter. but nobody can take the place of the girl, who has left.My eyes became moist while writing this.

  11. arre…today morning only I was smiling at something ammu was saying and then thought, is it only me who muses for everything she says, just because she is my daughter? And yday was seeing her 1st bday pics and then I missed babies so much. I feel like you too..I don’t want any more babies but would love to play with others’ babies for a while 😛 your first para was so much poetic… 🙂

  12. I have two daughters and a son. Thank god for them.

    Daughters really are a boon for mothers. They understand us better than anyone else in the world can. My daughters are my rocks. When I went for some surgery last year, they way they took care of me makes me go down on my knees to thank God. I felt as if they carried me in their two hands for over a month. They pamper me silly even now. I wonder what I did to deserve them.

    I’m not saying my son wouldn’t take care of me but at present he is young and so lost in his own world. 🙂

    Lovely post Rachna. The first para was sheer poetry! 🙂

    • That was so heartening to read, Dagny! I know exactly what you mean when you say that daughters take great care of their mothers. I would like to believe that my sister and I did the same when my mother was suffering. They truly are a blessing. The irony is that those who crave for them don’t get them. Thanks for reading as always and for your lovely comment.

  13. Lovely post, girls have their special ways to win our hearts! My husband is one smitten father!

  14. Very nice post Rachna. very touching 🙂

  15. It is an open secret that we are praying for a healthy baby girl this time around. And love your post too 🙂

  16. Playing with little children is always fun, mixed with moments of completeness. Lovely post, Rachna.

  17. Nice. Though I wouldn’t know. Possibly I will know better as my son grows older.

  18. I agree, little girls have something magical about them :). A sweet little post!

  19. I can understand your wanting a baby girl. I am fortunate to have two. I never fail tocount my blessings

    U r abs right. Bringing up kids is a big challenge and requires oodles of patience and caring and some sacrifices. But the end product is a loving family. Even i cant imagine the rearing once again. God gives you just enough patience to do it with two kids.

    I too look forward to grand children

    Lovely post

  20. Manika on February 1, 2014 at 8:39 am said:

    So nicely written. I feel, it is not only me, rather my sons also miss the presence of little sister….and their talks are so open that we all feel, there should be a daughter in every house, which make it a home. Boys learn from home, how to talk with girls if they have sister.

    • Just now these two are happy having each other so that they can play common games that they know girls don’t play :). I do think, it is a more balancing experience to have a sister at home. But what can be done? Destiny!

  21. When I sit and think about a future pregnancy, I wonder how I will manage a kid. I still feel I myself am a kid. I feel a mother is born the minute a child is born, probably it won’t be that difficult. I love baby girls too. 🙂

    • Sometimes, the mother is born even later. I have seen mothers who instantly do not warm up to their children. Besides, it is a lot of hard work and frustration while the baby and mother adjust to each other. The children reward you adequately for the hard work too :).

  22. Babies are so sweet….i keep enjoying their company whenever i come across them…. And i too always yearned for a baby girl…..

  23. Always thought that Rachna 🙂 That children are best enjoyed when they are someone else’s 🙂 I mean, you can cuddle them and all, but hand them over to the parents comes the time to change the diapers 🙂

  24. I so agree with Suresh’s comment above. Now-a-days, I can play, smile, laugh, chat, cuddle the little ones for a short while… after that it has to be their mummas! 😛

  25. Such beautiful thoughts! Loved reading it! 🙂

  26. Lovely post–just what I feel.I wish there was always a baby in the home–perhaps that’s why there used to be so many kids in every household.

    • I do miss little babies because they are so much fun to be around. But, raising them is a lot of responsibility and hard work. So, enjoying the fruits of someone else’s labor is a lucrative idea :).

  27. Sweet post, Rachna. And now I am quite sure how much you are waiting for your boys to grow up, get married and bring bahus into your life. After all, as Indian TV teaches us in the last episode of every serial, Bahu = Daughter!

    And then, the prospect of having little baby girls’ pattering feet to distract you from your back and knee pains when you are in your 60s! Already sounds like a delight! 😀

    • Hahahaha Rickie. No, I am not waiting for them to bring home bahus or become children vending machines. I would love to play with their kids in case they have them but will never pressure them :). These days, I am content with playing with cute children whose tantrums and chores are none of my business :D!

  28. Phew…finally Got the time to read this post. True, a lot of hard work entails bringing them up. But they are such a joy to be around 🙂
    The first para reminded me of my little S 🙂

  29. I loved the post, written with so much love…I too want a girl Rachna but let’s see what God has planned for us 🙂

  30. A reflections of my thoughts , Rachna and god was kind to fulfill my wish to raise a daughter:)

  31. What can I say Rachna? Your words my thoughts. Miss a girl too.

  32. Beautifully written. I can see you love kids, and girls esp. Hope you find many more friends with baby girls 🙂

  33. Aww…I know this feeling. I feel the same every time I am with my little nephew. When he was born I was around all the time and my family had officially named me his nanny! Oh I miss that time, looking after him, bathing him, all the baby powder and lotion, everything. This brought back so many sweet, baby memories. 🙂 Thanks, Rachna! Have fun with that little angel.

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    Wonderful post Racha Thanks for sharing !!

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  35. Aww..it was wonderful to read about how you look forward to play with your friend’s little girl. The innocence, the beautiful smile and the cute things they do always mesmerize us 🙂

  36. Anita Desai on February 7, 2014 at 5:10 pm said:

    Hello Rachna. I have been introduced to your blog from dear friend Subhorup Dasgupta. I have enjoyed reading all your blog posts and I like the way you have expressed your feelings about children, can almost feel your warmth and motherhood. 🙂

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    when i read this article i thought i could also make comment due to this brilliant article.

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